I would like to introduce myself. Hi. My name is Ken...I'm fat. Did you say, Hi Ken? Thank you. I'm addicted to food; greasy, fattening, healthy, vegetables, meat, bread, starches, proteins, carbs, etc. I love sweets as well. I love to cook! I can be passionate about cooking on most days. I love the food network. I would love to go to cooking school, but don't figure I'll get the opportunity.
I was visiting with a pregnant woman the other day. She was close to her due date and was complaining about not being able to roll over in bed. She said, "I can't wait to have this baby so I don't have to sit up to roll over in bed." I smiled and tried to show her sympathetic eyes. SYMPATHETIC EYES? Who am I kidding...I've been pregnant for 20 years. Rolling over in bed should be an Olympic event! Announcer: "He's up, he's twisting...look at that form!" He's making his descent. What a landing!"
Do I want to be fat? Yes, absolutely! There is nothing more exciting than being out of breath when walking up a flight of stairs. There is nothing greater than passing a Pizza Hut and realizing that the noon buffet is $3.49. I love being addicted to food. I also love sarcasm, in case you didn't notice.
Of course I don't like being fat. It's a daily struggle. It hurts. I go into withdrawals. I cry at times. I worry about sitting in a restaurant booth and not fitting. I worry about taking the youth group to an amusement park and not participating. I despise flying because the seats are small. Would you like me to go on? OK, I will. I am no better than a person addicted to alcohol or drugs. I am damaging my body every time I make a bad food decision.
I am not a fan of surgeries and hope to never have one. I'm not a fan of diet pills or fads. Let's go back to 1993...in a six month time period I ate right and exercised daily...I lost 110 lbs. Since that time I have gained/lost close to 600lbs...up and down, down and up, etc. I understand it is unhealthy to jump up and down, and never plan on doing that. Every time I lose weight I tell myself this is the last time.
This blog is for my own good. If you read it and enjoy it...great! If you never look at it again...wonderful. I will update it as often as possible. Don't expect pictures with my shirt off like "The Biggest Loser"...just short blogs. I begin today, again. With my clothes on I weigh...I'm too ashamed to tell you. Maybe later.
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It's a daily struggle for me, too. And, I think your brother would say it is for him, as well...though he's done better lately.
ReplyDeleteI think it's especially hard when you love to cook - like you and I both do. And it's hard with a family to feed, but it would probably be just as hard for me if I were alone.
Thanks for sharing. Many, many are in the same situation and you will inspire others, I'm sure.
Lori
Ken, This was just so well put. Something I think many of us struggle with. I can't wait to see your journey and I can't wait to tell you of my success too. You have lit a fire under me. Thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteShonda